The first part of 2010 in most of the United States has turned out to be quite dramatic weather-wise. We have had a lot of ice and snow here in Oklahoma and apparently there is more to come! At first, I joined the masses, stocking up on groceries and staying home for days. The second freeze that came through wasn't as bad and I decided to not hibernate anymore and dragged myself to yoga class.
My car has not been washed once since the first ice storm this year, and it is looking really dire. But somehow I don't even mind. I just have my own little routine that I follow and I quite enjoy it. It would be much nicer, I suppose, if the sun was shining and the sky was blue everyday, but for a few days the snow covered all the hibernating brown grass and made everything look beautiful.
Now that everything is melting, I see large groups of birds sitting on our roof, or in the fields down the road, hunting for their food.
So I observe all these things and I feel good. That is probably why I was surprised when making small talk with an acquaintance, I found myself involved in a conversation about how terrible the weather is, and how it makes people feel bad and how long this winter has been. This may sound like a normal thing or a small thing to mention, but I was really surprised. As I drove home, I realized that how I feel inside reflects in my world "out there". And so, at least right now, as I feel great, the weather does not bother me. I hadn't even really noticed, to be honest, except for the appearance of ice and then snow and then lack of snow and then snow again.
So tonight I ponder more about how resetting my internal thermostat, or how my internal weather, is the dominant source of how I feel. And that feels pretty good! Because that means that I am in charge of how I feel.
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